A LIFE UPDATE: REMEMBERING DENISE
The last month has been one of the toughest. Keil’s mum, Denise, died suddenly on the 5th of June and in a moment our world changed forever.
My immediate reaction was to turn off all my posts for the next few days. If you’ve been here a while you’ll know I believe in consistency and scheduling but above everything else authenticity. It didn’t feel right to be posting about blogging tips when underneath our world was in such turmoil.
A month later and we’re very slowly come to terms with what happened. It’s hard to believe someone who was so full of life, who’d only returned from a fabulous holiday the day before is no longer with us.
It’s been about 6 weeks since we last spoke, right before her holiday. It’s hard to comprehend since then I’ve helped support Keil and his brother plan her funeral, had to say our goodbyes and I’ve spent many days at her house sorting through a lifetime of memories.
My businesses have definitely suffered in the short-term as there are only so many hours in the day and I have my own grief to deal with. The advantage of running your own business is to be there when you’re needed and so I’ve been doing the minimum in business and trying to do the maximum in life.
As we face the second half of the year with a huge hole in our hearts I’ve begun to make some goals because life and business need to go on. Lots of things feel almost insignificant but at the same time, I am ready to push even more towards my own version of success.
I want to make sure my businesses are even stronger.
I want to make Denise proud. I know she was, in fact, she was of our biggest supporters. I already miss her username “rubyruffles” no longer showing up as liking my posts on all of my different Instagram accounts.
There’s a long road ahead as we process through our grief, this week specifically has been the hardest yet. I felt this post is a way to help me move forward, to kickstart the blog again and recognise this moment – No matter how hard it is.
So to Denise, thank you for memories, the trips to Vegas, the days out, the tea at your house. More than that thank you for the love, the kindness and the laughter.
Caroline Towers is a blogger, blogging educator & multi-passionate business owner. She is the founder of The Content Edit. In her spare time she loves to travel, go to the movies, watch sport & drink prosecco!